Forgive me for I have sinned or somethingPosted: October 2, 2016 | Author: loupollard | Filed under: LOVE, Self improvement | Tags: Bill Wyman - Je Suis un Rock Star - '81, daughter guilt, dementia, family obligations, la di da, lurking addiction, single mother delusions, single mother guilt, single mother internet addict, social media, true confessions |Leave a comment
I’m not Catholic but I think I need to ‘fess up about my online habits. I have an addiction to Instagram, I get work from Facebook connections and I read crap about idiot politicians on Twitter. My addiction to lurking is not completely out of control, I know that Google + is pointless, and the only time I use LinkedIn is when my mother’s dementia flares up and I’m talking on the phone with her for the third or fourth time in one day and listening to stories she has already told me 100 times. So I connect with people on LinkedIn in order to emotionally disconnect from the feeling that the mother I knew has gone forever. My siblings and I are mourning her loss before she has left us and social media helps me feel somehow less powerless.
I’m the youngest of four children and my mum dedicated her life to us so I’m slowly losing my biggest fan. I know that the Internet can’t fill the void but some nights watching tragic bands from the 80s on YouTube helps.
Bill Wyman – Je Suis un Rock Star – ’81